the queen
when one is in love the entire world is beautiful. splitting all smiles to friends even to strangers, like all dreams have come true. problems has set aside, nearest dangers became remote, gloomy skies then all bright now.
one flies from one flash to another, reminiscing first moments of everything. no matter how many have been with one, one returns to be innocent, like a child again.
hopes of being together almost everyday grows into longing of staying together. to share life, heal each other, dance together, make mushy gestures on instants.
but what if the bliss you knew could only be short-lived? would one fight or just let it go? would one send a forwarded sms to be of thought by ‘the man’?
i’m in love, i think, at least, with a straight guy, over dozens of red horse beer and a corpse of a former classmate.
well of course we talk still on sober times. and the episodes are the same. he asked me to be there coz he wanted to see me. he asks how have i been and how my day was. there was even this girl who likes him that makes her moves just to get his attention, and what’s amusing is that she told me she’s sick of me coz ‘the man’ is all on me. hey miss, i haven’t even told him i like him, so back off!
i’ve had same things before, affair to remember. those men might not include my name on their list but i have my own witnesses ever our cases reach the judge hehehe.
ainaku naman masaya tlga ang feeling, pero hndi palage!
the catch is that i haven’t sent ‘the man’ another sms for two days already. not to try my prettiness if he’d think of me or not, but for my lead to go back to the real world. and he hasn’t given me any sms either.
he’s straight, i’m gay, and like my old times, the Queen doesn’t end up with the Prince Charming.
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