spending life my own way
when i was asked what my passion is, i said, “i don’t know”.
hindi ko talaga alam kung ano ang gusto ko gawin sa buhay ko. pero hindi ibig sabihin nun na wala akong pangarap sa buhay. funny as it may seem but i dream as i’ll live without end.
all my life, all i wanted was to be happy, and my delight is to give happiness to whomever i am connected, if not share my own. wala naman ako inasam sa mundo kundi maging masaya, mapasaya ko magulang at pamilya ko, mapasaya mga kaibigan ko. this emotion i cannot resist.
i didn’t have a bad past or an awful childhood for me to fancy perpetual happiness. mababaw lang ako, gusto ko lang maging masaya ang araw-araw.
if that is aimless, i may be heartless. if my living hasn’t had any effect, i should be called indifferent.
and i’m not ready to die yet. but i try to live everyday as if i’d die by midnight. maybe in God’s time i’d weigh up on one activity or another and persuade myself on performing it, or perhaps i’d remain motionless for years doing the same things. but i’d still make an effort to do my life fine; because in everything i do i am passionate.
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I was asked the same question (hmmm... magkasama ba tayo nun? lol) recently and I wasn't able to give any answer . A follow-up question was given: "if you die tomorrow, would you die happy?". My answer was a firm "yes".
It seems funny, no, that someone who seems to have no passion can die happy. But that's me.
But, reading your post, I see that your passion is to be happy. Optimism is an extinct trait in our world nowadays. We need more people whose "delight is to give happiness to whomever [they are] connected [to/with], if not share [their] own".
In one of his books, Thomas Harris wrote: "The worm that destroys you is the temptation to agree with your critics, to get their approval". I have felt this a lot, and I am sure many people out there have felt this one time or another. For people like us, we need the "psychological/emotional nematocide" that you seem to naturally possess just by living a happy life passionately.
Heaviness! It is indeed a trick question in life that we oftentimes overlook thinking we know the answer but we really don't. Your passion may sound simple but it's hard. It's hard to make people smile let alone more difficult to please everybody. I suddenly realized how meaningless life can become that all our best efforts are nothing but a "chasing after the wind," nonetheless, I am truly glad that as simple or hard your passion may seem you're up for the challenge. I am even more glad that I am an "heiress" of your devotion. Pouvez vous de phase pour toujours mon ami!
I'm glad to see what two questions can do.
Just wanted to add something. Passion and Purpose are two different things. Sometimes we are unaware that what we have is already passion. Purpose on the other hand is a justification of our presence in the universe.
And I believe that my second question was about contentment. If you die tomorrow, would you say you were content on how you lived your life? (long version of what I meant to ask)
Bringing happiness to others and to yourself is indeed a great purpose in life. Sabagay, I don't believe in people whose sole purpose is just to bring harm and chaos to others.
As I always say, as long as you are not harming others, then you have nothing to worry about.
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P.S.
kinda irita lang ang pop-ups ng blog pero i love the "destiny" background.
there could only be one lifetime we can remember, and it is the time we're in right now. and i believe that we are not here for the achievements, but to be faithful. continue practicing compassion.
and hey, what do we live for if not to make life less difficult for each other? :)
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